It's a new month

So I haven't posted a blog since my "Perfect Weekend" back on the 13th.  I have let "life" take over and have not focused on my health.  I have been going to bed later than I would like and as a result I have been getting up too late to workout.  I haven't been planning my dinners so I have not been eating as great as I should have.  I do have to celebrate the small victories that I had over the last few weeks regardless of me not being as disciplined.  I still have not had quick yucky fast food!!!  I have had In-N- Out but it's not a regular thing and I don't consider them in the same catagory as Jack In The Box, Taco Bell, or Mc Donald's.  I went to Vegas last weekend and worked out both days; a workout in the fitness room and a walk/job down The Strip.  I also was able to control my eating and snacking.  And in the last few weeks even though I haven't been counting calories like I should and I haven't been working out like I should I only gained 1 pound.  Which I am happy about, I was afraid it was going to be more.
 

So today is March 1st and I am starting a new month and getting back on track.  I did have a rough morning though.  I had a very vivid dream that my husband and I were at the park with all 6 of our kids running around.  My husband and I were smiling and hugging, just enjoying watching our kids plays.  The kids were running and laughing and their laugh was that hardy kids laugh, straight from the belly kind of laugh.  The kids were the age they are now except Bella was about 1 running and falling with her older brothers and sisters.  Phillip and Adam were the age they should be today, 7 almost 8.  Phillip looked a lot like my Elizabeth with light skin and light hair.  Adam looked a lot like Arcadia, with darker olive skin and dark hair.  The Boys were so handsome and had the same BIG smile as Arcadia, Zach, Elizabeth, and Bella.  Anthony and I had the BIGGEST smiles on our faces.  We sat in the grass and just enjoyed the view, soaking up what our love has created.  When I woke up I felt at peace, happy, and carefree but it didn't last.  I realized it was a dream and I started crying; I wanted it to be true, I wanted to experience it, I wanted the kids to experience their siblings.  I cried off and on all morning, even in my classroom my eyes would get watery.  These feelings then made me want to EAT!!!  I wanted chocolate, I wanted a Dr. Pepper, I wanted ice cream, I wanted something but all I had was some chocolate and I allowed myself some.  It was just too overwhelming, I had never had a dream like that.  I had some chocolate and then put it away, away from where I was working.  I went on with my day.  I am grateful for the dream and it was beautiful but it did mess me up today.  I'm just glad I didn't jump overboard and binge!!! 

Like I said today is a new month and I have my next goal to focus on, another 10 pounds.  I am going to finish this blog and pop in my Turbo Jam video to get a workout in today!  I have been counting my calories today and I am ready to get back on track!!!

I wish you all a Happy March and I hope you make it a great one!