I sit here one year later reflecting on 2011 and looking forward to 2012. I did not hit all of my goals for 2011 but I am down from where I was one year ago. I am glad that I went a whole year aware of my weight and what I was putting in my body. I am proud that I have become more educated about my health. I have read a book that has helped me see weight loss in a different light, Women Food and God, by Geneen Roth has been an eye opening book. This book has helped me understand or at least try to understand the the gain and ideas for helping myself heal. It's a long journey and I have shed a few tears but it is cleansing. I am enjoying this journey.
So it is time to look at my goals for 2012. Here they are:
Starting weight: 298 (12-31-11)
Goal #1: 288 (3-10-12) weight at the '09 Disneyland 1/2 marathon- pedicure
Goal #2: 278 (5-19-12) loss of 10% my body weight- massage
Goal #3: 268 (7-28-12) just before my 36th birthday!- diamond studs
Goal #4: 263 (9-1-12) '12 Disneyland 1/2 marathon- mani, pedi & massage
Goal #5: 257 (10-13-12) Our 11 year wedding anniversary- couples massage
Goal #6: 247 (12-31-11) 51 pounds down!- spa day at Glen Ivy
I've figured that I would lose 1 pound per week, that is realistic. I want to take it slow and not stress out on the weight loss. I think that is why I'm not too disappointed with this years weight loss, I'm not going to stress. I am going to live my life BUT stay aware of what is going on with my health. It is really a lifestyle change not a diet, it is my journey.
Good bye 2011! Thank you for the life lessons!!! I wish you all the best in the New Year. Be safe tonight and enjoy the celebration. HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I will continue on this journey and continue to loss this weight.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
One Year Ago...
December 18th marked my one year anniversary of this weight loss journey! I am looking at this in a positive, glass is half full lens instead of crying poor me. Let's see... this time last year I was 311 pounds and now I am 298! I am so glad (but cautiously aware) that I am out of the 300's. I hit 298 early this year but have struggled to get down. Now, if I was in a different state of mind I would have been sulking because I was down to 292 bringing my weight loss to 19 pounds, however that weigh in took place after my surgery and not having eaten for 3 days because of the surgery. I am proud of my self because this was the first time I was actually aware about what I put in my body, although it wasn't always the best foods I was aware of what I was doing and not just moving through the day.
Being aware of what was going in my body was not the only positive for me this year. I was able to exercise and run, not to mention I enjoyed it! I look forward to getting out there again and begin my training for my 1/2 marathon. I am going to train and get ready for the 2012 Disneyland 1/2 marathon. I didn't get to do the 2011 race because I had my Gall Bladder removed. I did however do the 5k along side my aunt and my mom. I didn't do the race for a set time because I was running/walking with a camera to capture my mom's first Disneyland 5k! I was glad I got to do the 5k even though I couldn't do the 1/2 marathon.
This year has also been a positive in the sense that I am dealing with my personal issues and letting myself FEEL! I am always the person that smiles, laughs, and says everything is great but I am a wreck inside. I have been reading recommended books and they are helping me deal with these feelings of hurt, pain, and grief. After my surgery I went into a semi depressive state longing for my sons and questioning their deaths. I found comfort in food, sweets, coffees, basically ANYTHING that tasted good and made me happy. I was aware of what I was doing but didn't care because questioning my self and my beliefs about what happened hurt. It was something that needed to be done. So that is how I went from 292 back to 298 and even though I went up I considered what I was doing, the fact that I was aware of what I was doing, and the fact that I wasn't back where I started one year ago which made me happy.
I am still on my journey and I have accepted that I am not going to lose all my weight in 6 months, 1 year, or even 18 months. I am a work in progress and I am taking it one day at a time, one step at a time. I am not going to take medications, magic pills, surgery, or any pay for weight loss program. I am going to continue working on myself, my happiness, my health, my athletic ability, and my mental health. It took me about 7 years to get this big so I am going to allow myself time to loss this weight. I have everything I need; a loving and supportive husband, my wonderful children, my supportive family and friends, this blog, and an open mind.
In closing I have lost 13 pounds in Year 1 of my Weight Loss Journey. I continue to gain straight mentally and physically and I look forward to Year 2 of this Mother of 6's Weight Loss Journey!
Merry Christmas to you and your family and may 2012 be an AMAZING year for you all!
Being aware of what was going in my body was not the only positive for me this year. I was able to exercise and run, not to mention I enjoyed it! I look forward to getting out there again and begin my training for my 1/2 marathon. I am going to train and get ready for the 2012 Disneyland 1/2 marathon. I didn't get to do the 2011 race because I had my Gall Bladder removed. I did however do the 5k along side my aunt and my mom. I didn't do the race for a set time because I was running/walking with a camera to capture my mom's first Disneyland 5k! I was glad I got to do the 5k even though I couldn't do the 1/2 marathon.
This year has also been a positive in the sense that I am dealing with my personal issues and letting myself FEEL! I am always the person that smiles, laughs, and says everything is great but I am a wreck inside. I have been reading recommended books and they are helping me deal with these feelings of hurt, pain, and grief. After my surgery I went into a semi depressive state longing for my sons and questioning their deaths. I found comfort in food, sweets, coffees, basically ANYTHING that tasted good and made me happy. I was aware of what I was doing but didn't care because questioning my self and my beliefs about what happened hurt. It was something that needed to be done. So that is how I went from 292 back to 298 and even though I went up I considered what I was doing, the fact that I was aware of what I was doing, and the fact that I wasn't back where I started one year ago which made me happy.
I am still on my journey and I have accepted that I am not going to lose all my weight in 6 months, 1 year, or even 18 months. I am a work in progress and I am taking it one day at a time, one step at a time. I am not going to take medications, magic pills, surgery, or any pay for weight loss program. I am going to continue working on myself, my happiness, my health, my athletic ability, and my mental health. It took me about 7 years to get this big so I am going to allow myself time to loss this weight. I have everything I need; a loving and supportive husband, my wonderful children, my supportive family and friends, this blog, and an open mind.
In closing I have lost 13 pounds in Year 1 of my Weight Loss Journey. I continue to gain straight mentally and physically and I look forward to Year 2 of this Mother of 6's Weight Loss Journey!
Merry Christmas to you and your family and may 2012 be an AMAZING year for you all!
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